My mom...

I sit here tonight really missing my mom.  She passed away December 13th 2014 after an 8+ year battle with cancer.  I am absolutely heart broken.  Time just keeps going and I want it to stop, so I can mourn.  My life, my kids, my responsibilities keep going...  
I am almost 40 years old, but I still need my mom!  I think back to the last week of her life and I wish this turned out with a miracle.  She was so strong and her desire to stay with us has me up every night running it though my head... should I have talked to her about dying? Would that have helped her at all?  Would it have me?  We tried to be positive.
So now I have lost my step mom and my mom to cancer.

New Beginnings

December 13, 2014 we lost our mom to cancer.  She fought for 8 1/2 years, but it in the end it won.  Even during her chemo treatments, she would help me sew chemo hats for other ladies.  She was a wonderful mom!!

Now I am trying to wrap my brain around what happened.  Some days are more difficult than others.  I miss her everyday.  It is tough to go from talking to someone and seeing them everyday to nothing.  Only memories.  I am sooo thankful for all of the time I had to spend with her!  And so happy my boys got so much time with her too.

I am in the process of putting away my step mom's sewing machine and using my mom's.  I know she would have wanted me to do that too.  This way, I can honor both of them.

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Thanks!
Melissa